Just thinking… June 27, 2007
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I added this new category today, simply because nowadays, this topic is of utmost importance to me. Each day is the day of new revelation for me, since i got married. Sometimes the discoveries are related to me, sometimes they are related to my hubby, but usually they are related to the great indian thing called as “marriage”. No doubts marriage has added a new dimension to my life which offers me numerous opportunities to know more about me. I have a habit of thinking hard about a thing or a situation till i reached a conclusion, which now looms large on me. Whenever i am faced with a situation, i just think think and think about when, what and who caused that situation. During my thinking process i usually deduce things, go on playing blame game and ultimately reach a conclusion that “this particular person is responsible for that situation” and that person is usually “ME”. So……………………..Unable to find more words to explain my state of mid. Anyone who has similar characteristics that i mentioned above please please contact me through this blog.
My dilemma’s May 25, 2007
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I got married on 10th February, 2007. Its been only close to 4 months since the start of my so called new life. Though the life has no doubt changed, it now appears to me that i had been living like this for years. I really can’t define what turmoils or situations one has to face. Mine being a love marraige, I am atleast comfortable to my hubby, zoheb. Frankly speaking as everybody says, he doesn’t come across to me as a completely changed man after marriage. Infact he is more or less same as i used to date during our courtship days. Well, i m not going to write about that saga about how we met or fell in love, I just want to share the feelings and emotions that i usually go through after having a marriage experience of atleast 4 months (phew). First of all, the old days of bachelorhood, oops, the days when i was (alas it is actually “was”, i can’t believe it) single just haunts me like a ghost or like a sour old love affair(which got never materialised). I remember all those days and often go into deep thoughts remembering that why i took a decision at all to get married !! Sounds weird, but yes, guys, gals also feels so. Those days were just golden days of my life. On weekends i never remember doing anything except sleeping. I used to read newspapers for hours, eat (not cook) my favourite dishes and used to chat endlessly with my dearest sis. When i now share all these things with my mom, she defines how she to feel the same way like me. Oh, ok, i m glad i m not suffering with a physicological disease. May be, the change of my life had made me felt like this. I discussed this with zohi and he says yup, he also feels the same, but every phase has it’s own advantages and disadvantages. How true, why i can’t be that positive, phew, anyways, whatever is the reason or the situation, i want to go back, but don’t know how…But this time i want to take zohi with me, in my past, that’s for sure !!
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